Eff.

She looked good tonight. That's all.

Moving On

So lately it has been my duty to move on. At first I thought that I was doing pretty good, but the more I saw her, the more I realized that I hadn't moved on at all. I started to find an interest in a girl, and that distracted me for about 3 days, but then I got a wake up call when I was told she was dating someone else. In the past, any time I needed to get over a girl, I just went on as many dates as I could. The problem now though is that I don't really want to date because I know that as soon as I do, the memories will start to fade. I just don't know if I am ready for that. Even though I know I need to. This is the only way that I am going to be able to move on, and a large part of me just doesn't want to yet. Out of obligation I went on a date with a friend to the Sigma Gamma Chi formal, and while I had a bunch of fun, and danced the night away, it just wasn't the same. I know that it isn't fair for me to compare girls, but it was so hard not to. I knew that there wasn't much of anything between my date and I, but for some reason I still compared.

I AM going to get over this. I am doing the right things right now, and by nature of the way that the Lord works, and how He has worked in my life in the past, I will get over this. It is still going to take some time, but He will help me get over this.

I just wish that it would be consistently warm so that I could take out the current love of my life. I have some new body work for my motorcycle, and it will look good once I have it all on and painted.