Christmas!

Well Christmas and New Years has come and gone! Crazy! Obviously, at the beginning of the year there is always time for reflection, so I am going to do that a little. I can easily say that 2009 has been the best year of my life! As many of you know (and anyone that is reading this and other posts know) there has been many ups, and in my opinion, only one down albeit a large down. I have never been as happy as I was in 2009, but the good thing is that even with the large downer of the end of my engagement, I can honestly say that I didn't also experience the saddest time of my life. As bad as the experience has been, it has been a real eye opener for me and I am loving it. This last year, mostly M'kynzi's doing, has given me so many opportunities for growth, both spiritually and emotionally. I have increased my capacity to love in a way I didn't think was possible in my relationship with M'kynzi. I have learned and continue to learn how important family is. Through my experience with M'kynzi, my family, and to some degree, M'kynzi's family has been huge for me. They have shown me how much they love me in a way that they haven't done to this point in my life. Quite honestly it has surprised the heck out of me.

I have learned that I am not even close to being in charge of my life, and quite honestly it kinda sucks. But the one who is in charge, the Lord, knows what is going on so I guess I have to be ok with it. I admit, I get frustrated at times when I dont get to be more involved with the major decisions in my life, but I tend to think that that is normal so I dont worry about it too much.

I have learned to be happy no matter what. I have too many great things in my life not to be completely happy. Yeah, there are some things that I wish were different, but you know, they aren't different, and there isn't much I can do to change them. The Lord has given me a curveball and I am given the opportunity to see how I react to it. I tend to think that I am reacting pretty freakin' well, and I plan on being a better person after every curveball I am thrown.

I am really happy with the way 2009 went, and I am so incredibly happy and excited for the things that will happen in 2010. I have graduation to look forward to, possibly PT school, and a possible move. Things will be great, and I am excited for the curveballs that are going to be thrown my way cause I know I handle it. I am excited to see what will happen with M'kynzi and I, because I have a feeling that it will be good! I love her to death, and I am certain that things are going to work out.