New Years

So its a new year. I am not typically the type to make new years resolutions, and I really dont think that I am going to this year. I do have some goals though. I have been looking at past relationships recently. They obviously didn't work, so something needs to change. I am not really sure what that is yet, and I am not entirely sure that I could have done more in some of those relationships to help them work out, but I did what I could. I have recently asked some of the girls that I dated, the ones that will still talk to me, what it is that I could have done better. I told them that "nothing" was an acceptable answer. One of the girls I asked successfully avoided that question, but another one was great and was full of answers. I didn't know how I felt about that, but I took it with a grain of salt. Most of the things that were said weren't things that were dont when I was dating the girl, but rather afterwards. This tells me one thing right away. I need to work on actual friendships. I am sure there are things that I need to work on though, even if these friends of mine didn't tell me. So one of my goals for the coming year is to work on my relationships, both present and future.

Another goal of mine for the coming year, which will benefit me in the future as well, is to establish a new list of priorities. The Gospel will always come first in my life, and family will always be a close second. Its the friends, school, and relationships that I need to establish an order for. I dont really know what order they are currently in, with the exception of relationships. That is pretty much last right now. But I think its time that that changes. My friend Shane has helped me realize a few things, and has helped me think that its about time. I realized over the holidays that I was kinda lonely, even though I was hanging out with my family and freinds most of the time. Throughout my dating life I have usually been more happy when I was dating someone. Now I am not saying that I am not happy right now, I just like having that someone around to share silly and stupid moments that make me laugh and bring a smile to my face. Now that I have given you that little whining moment, let move on. I am going to be taking what will probably be the most difficult class in my life, Physics 2. I did ok in my Physics 1 class, but I was working my butt off. I have to do well in this class in order to make it into Physical Therapy school, something that is very important to me right now. I feel that I am capable of this, and I feel like the Lord will be there with me to help me do it.

This year is going to be fun. There will be much excitement coming my way, and much improvement and growth coming my way. Its going to be a great year, and I am so ready for it!